I was talking to someone last night about my anxiety about the current situation and it became quite clear during that convo that i am afraid of gay people. I mean seriously afraid as in you guys freak me out completely and i dont know why. I have nothing against you. Its not my business who or what you do.

Maybe this is because im a self loathing closeted homo but i really dont think so. I really dont know why ye freak me out, maybe its cause im afraid im gay too? I get this type of fear/obsession about a lot of things such as if i did something stupid i obsess about what people think about it but it seems far more intense/persistent on this issue. Its turned me into an anxious obsessed mess. Please help

It's all good! When you get all nervous/anxious just breathe. You might be gay you might not be but that's something you have to deal with on your own.

Nobody can tell you or understand it for you. It's inside you. It's the same as the fact that my eyes are blue. It's a part of you. As for the other maybe you should go see someone. You might have some type of anxiety disorder. I do and I have medicine for it and it really calms me down so I don't obsess and freak out over stupid stuff like: showing up and walking late into class or calling new friends I've made to hang out. Stuff like that, for no apparent reason freaks me out. So I talked to someone about it and now I have some anxiety medication that really helps me and keeps me from freaking out so much. And the breathing helps too. Take deep, slow breaths and try to count to ten. That should slow down your heart rate and you'll be fine. Hope that helped.

Hey it sounds like you are at least coming more to terms with what is in your head. This post seems calmer than the other one. YOu may have some self doubt and even self loathing but from what you have posted you just do not seem to be a closet case. So tell me, my friend, what are you affraid of. It seems that at first your fear was that you might be gay and you were affraid of that thought but now you seem to be a little clearer on who you are so if that was the source of your fear it should be subsiding a bit. So now, what other things are there that you find to fear about gay people? Let me ask you also if you fear bi people. This one may be silly on the surface but ask yourself if you also fear straight people. I'm wondering if your fear is more general where sexuality is concerned and less specific to homosexual situations.

And let me compliment you on something. You are here facing exactly what is terrifying you and that is admirable. Though it is scary you have walked into the cave with the bear and things are going well. I wish more people could take your example and just walk right up and clear the aitr and admit their problems and try to work on it. As scary as all of this may seem to you you are really showing a great deal of courage and ability and even self awareness.

Only one thing if you develop in your personality you can be more satisfy and bold. That is [confidence]
Thanks
Afzal
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